On the 11th Day of the 11th Month at the 11th Hour the WWI Armistice was signed. Not too many people remember that. They are busy taking advantage of the sales and enjoying a day off from work and school. Nary a WWI veteran is around to recall the horrors of trench warfare and the use of chemical weapons.
Pretty soon we will be out of WWII veterans - our parents' generation - The Greatest Generation. Or the Korean War Veterans - the Forgotten War.
But, there are 58,195 names etched on a black granite wall in Washington, DC that reflect in a silence that screams volumes to remind us of the toll of war. The Vietnam War. Go to the wall and stare at the names - each one a son, brother, husband, father, sister, daughter, mother, wife - and see a reflection of your face in the granite.
We say "never again," but we still don't mean it. 58,195 names. A city larger than the one I live in. Some came back and make the pilgrimage to the wall to leave gifts to fallen comrades. And they are all kept in a vault by the National Park Service, carefully categorized. Each one a poignant statement...I remember!
Today, at the 11th Hour of the 11th Day of the 11th Month of the 11th Year, pull yourself away from the sales and the madness and remember. Not only those soldiers that have given their lives, but the ones that are keeping the American Dream alive for us all.
© DD Corbitt
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Out of Darkness: Lost in Loss
Thirty years ago, October 31, 1981, I became a part of something that happens once in a lifetime - if ever at all. I married Vernon Lee Corbitt - 31 years my senior, a lover, friend, soulmate. In a soft-spoken Southern drawl he had me at, "Hey, there." We loved, we built, we lost people, we lost a home, we rebuilt, we did everything. Together. Mostly, we laughed. It wasn't a roller coaster, scary ride. It was a feather down comforter - easy. It worked. In spite of everything, it worked really well.
Our last anniversary together, he gave me a huge amber spider - it being Halloween and we went to the grocery store. We locked the keys in the truck along with the groceries and sat, bewildered, in the parking lot trying to think of how we would get home. We laughed. We got a ride home and laughed. The house keys were securely locked in the truck with the groceries.
We laughed. Got the spare key from the lockbox on the back wall, retrieved the spare truck key and had two rides by now. We got the groceries home. And we laughed. So fitting.
We celebrated a 72nd birthday two weeks later on November 15, 1998, but would not see another.
At 10 pm November, 26, 1998 - Thanksgiving, you turned to me in the ICU and told me you loved me for the last time. The laughter stopped.
I brought your ashes to Anhinga Trail - a peaceful slice of the Everglades. You are but a memory, a space in time. If I hesitated I would have missed it all. So glad I was part of something so right.
"Goodnight, Sweet Prince; and flights of angels sing thee to thy rest..."
© DD Corbitt
Monday, October 10, 2011
Out of Darkness: The wonder of Night
When I was a child, I would look up at night and find the North Star. My eyes followed the star to the familiar constellations set against a vivid backdrop of the Milky Way. As I aged, the Milky Way disappeared into the glare of nighttime lights from cities and suburbs linking the nation together like an anchor rode. No longer was the Milky Way visible as city lights were always too close.
The North Star gave way to Orion as I moved South. Finally, so far South that the Southern Cross could be seen above the horizon from any bridge in February. A trade off: The North Star for Orion's belt.
When I took to sail from Bimini to Freeport, I rode out a particularly rough night on the lee side Of Great Isaac - long ago abandoned, said to be haunted and home to gulls and flies by the hundreds.
If you believe the tales, the last two lighthouse keepers simply disappeared. Or they were found murdered. As is part of the Bahamian lore, not one story is substantiated, yet all are known truths.
Alone, but for a small freighter,hugging the deep water coast for protection from the wind and below the guiding light of the torch, I batted flies and fell asleep. I awoke by the bright light that filled the cabin.
Dashing up the companionway to the deck I saw something astounding: The Milky Way! In all its splendor...Orion, the North Star, both Dippers, Casiopia The Seven Sisters and oh so much more. But the Milky Way...So bright that it had depth. I reached out to touch it... it was so close.
The next time I would get to rest my eyes on such beauty would be in the Arizona desert several years later.
Never lose sight of the stars, never be satisfied with what is. Always reach for something more. And, every once in a while, look up...
The North Star gave way to Orion as I moved South. Finally, so far South that the Southern Cross could be seen above the horizon from any bridge in February. A trade off: The North Star for Orion's belt.
When I took to sail from Bimini to Freeport, I rode out a particularly rough night on the lee side Of Great Isaac - long ago abandoned, said to be haunted and home to gulls and flies by the hundreds.
If you believe the tales, the last two lighthouse keepers simply disappeared. Or they were found murdered. As is part of the Bahamian lore, not one story is substantiated, yet all are known truths.
Alone, but for a small freighter,hugging the deep water coast for protection from the wind and below the guiding light of the torch, I batted flies and fell asleep. I awoke by the bright light that filled the cabin.
Dashing up the companionway to the deck I saw something astounding: The Milky Way! In all its splendor...Orion, the North Star, both Dippers, Casiopia The Seven Sisters and oh so much more. But the Milky Way...So bright that it had depth. I reached out to touch it... it was so close.
The next time I would get to rest my eyes on such beauty would be in the Arizona desert several years later.
Never lose sight of the stars, never be satisfied with what is. Always reach for something more. And, every once in a while, look up...
© DD Corbitt
Monday, September 26, 2011
Out of Darkness: When life intersects
When standing on the corner of loss and grief, which road leads to the light?
Life is a series of losses and recoveries, but sometimes the recovery never comes. It just begins a new road leading to a new loss.
Do we isolate to insulate? Devoid to avoid? Is there comfort in reliving the past? Do we dare to take the leap of faith that brings new beginnings?
No.
Just like the intersection of a 16th century coquina wall and its 20th century patch, it remains wounded. No patch can stop the bleeding heart and no happiness can dry yesterday's tears.
© DD Corbitt
Life is a series of losses and recoveries, but sometimes the recovery never comes. It just begins a new road leading to a new loss.
Do we isolate to insulate? Devoid to avoid? Is there comfort in reliving the past? Do we dare to take the leap of faith that brings new beginnings?
No.
Just like the intersection of a 16th century coquina wall and its 20th century patch, it remains wounded. No patch can stop the bleeding heart and no happiness can dry yesterday's tears.
© DD Corbitt
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Out of Darkness: Stormy Weather
It begins with a beautiful azure sky with cotton candy clouds floating by as if pulled by the string of a child's toy. So peaceful, blue, green, but not silent... far from it - Birds are calling their mates in anticipation of along flight - a safety migration.
Scurries can be heard from the tropical brush, fish jump and dive to the safety of the depths. Horses whinny and humans flock the roads in search of water, plywood, food, batteries and things that should have been bought months ago.
Feel the first moist wispy breeze. Smell the thick salt air. It enters the lungs and sinks to the bottom, feeling like the gentle way maple syrup falls over fresh pancakes. It smells so damned good...
Soon the squalls begin. Bands of rain and wind that quickly arrive and leave, becoming longer in their uninvited stay. Becoming torrents of needles on the skin and unpredictable in direction.You squint trying to find some slice of blue,but all you find are shades of gray and green - the reflection of the bay on the belly of swollen clouds.
Soon only the bravest or the dumbest are left outside while some crack open the "Hurricane Party" supplies. The survivors of Category 5 storms cower inside for they know there is no holding back nature's angriest swipe. Concrete, steel, plywood, aluminum and glass tempered to 125 mph winds are little protection. For even rain propels horizontal at a sustained 100 mph. Strong enough to bruise skin. At least it's not plywood, branches, or avocados... could be worse.
And, as the wind increases, so does the death toll: Man killed by falling tree...woman electrocuted by downed power line, child crushed by roof truss...
Then it stops.
The stars appear. The smell is akin to fish in a blender. Death.
Look to the side and see a mountain moving toward your haven. It's going to be worse this time. No warning of wispy winds and squalls elevating to a crescendo - not this time.
It roars in. the sound of a fistful of ball bearings being fired at your outer protection by rapid fire weapons. It chews the paint off cars, buildings and anything else in its way. It pulls trees from the ground- roots and all - leaving gaping graves.
Scurries can be heard from the tropical brush, fish jump and dive to the safety of the depths. Horses whinny and humans flock the roads in search of water, plywood, food, batteries and things that should have been bought months ago.
Feel the first moist wispy breeze. Smell the thick salt air. It enters the lungs and sinks to the bottom, feeling like the gentle way maple syrup falls over fresh pancakes. It smells so damned good...
Soon the squalls begin. Bands of rain and wind that quickly arrive and leave, becoming longer in their uninvited stay. Becoming torrents of needles on the skin and unpredictable in direction.You squint trying to find some slice of blue,but all you find are shades of gray and green - the reflection of the bay on the belly of swollen clouds.
Soon only the bravest or the dumbest are left outside while some crack open the "Hurricane Party" supplies. The survivors of Category 5 storms cower inside for they know there is no holding back nature's angriest swipe. Concrete, steel, plywood, aluminum and glass tempered to 125 mph winds are little protection. For even rain propels horizontal at a sustained 100 mph. Strong enough to bruise skin. At least it's not plywood, branches, or avocados... could be worse.
And, as the wind increases, so does the death toll: Man killed by falling tree...woman electrocuted by downed power line, child crushed by roof truss...
Then it stops.
The stars appear. The smell is akin to fish in a blender. Death.
Look to the side and see a mountain moving toward your haven. It's going to be worse this time. No warning of wispy winds and squalls elevating to a crescendo - not this time.
It roars in. the sound of a fistful of ball bearings being fired at your outer protection by rapid fire weapons. It chews the paint off cars, buildings and anything else in its way. It pulls trees from the ground- roots and all - leaving gaping graves.
Concerns range from the first hour: I hope the landscaping survives. To the second hour: I hope the vehicle survives. The third hour: I hope the house holds up. And, finally, are we going to survive?
The silence comes again. Eerily shoving out of the door and a quick scan reveals a foreign, unearthly landscape. Now what?
Now survival begins. And the sun returns bringing with it the wildlife. The breeze kisses the fear from human skin.
But, you never forget. You quit trying to warn people about what happened. Let them find out the hard way.
And the night falls, the wind picks up carrying a thunderstorm. Normal to most, but to those who remember...
They pace the floor in the dark.
© DD Corbitt
© DD Corbitt
Friday, August 19, 2011
Out of Darkness: Reminders
I had a subtle reminder today that came in the form of a forgotten poem...
Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the softly fallen snow
I am the gentle showers of rain,
I am the fields of ripening grain
I am in the morning hush,
I am in the graceful rush
of beautiful birds in circling flight
I am in the star shine of the night
I am in the flowers that bloom,
I am in a quiet room
I am in the birds that sing,
I am in each lovely thing
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there, I did not die
© DD Corbitt
Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the softly fallen snow
I am the gentle showers of rain,
I am the fields of ripening grain
I am in the morning hush,
I am in the graceful rush
of beautiful birds in circling flight
I am in the star shine of the night
I am in the flowers that bloom,
I am in a quiet room
I am in the birds that sing,
I am in each lovely thing
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there, I did not die
© DD Corbitt
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Out of Darkness: A simple thing as rain
Once there was a time when rain was a new adventure. A time to stomp and splash with husbands and nieces. A time to pull the car over, turn up the radio, throw open the doors, get out, hold each other close and dance on the side of the road. Now, it's a memory. How quickly things slip away. But how beautiful when tempered by subtle reminders. It's still here. In my heart.
© DD Corbitt
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Out of darkness
Just Ride. Smell the wind, feel the road, look around. The road is before you...you choose the turns. From MM0...
© DD Corbitt
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